No pictures just words.

I dunno the last time I have posted on my blog with NO pictures.

Just words!

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Welcome to my new spankin new blog!

Its like a fresh WHITE piece of paper.

Ready to create a masterpiece of Art.

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 Not really looking at it that way, Altho I should!

I needed a  NEW place to write that wasn't distracting.

Like opening a NEW journal and hearing that first crackle of the bindings........

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And,    She Will Fly...........

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This all was created in my mind in three days of driving from Texas to Utah.

I had plenty of time to think and ponder and wonder.

{I will explain how this came about}

Packed up my little scion box car with what I could fit, and my children.

I had ONE goal in mind!!  And that was HOME TO FAMILY!

Home to safety and home to comfort and home to a zillion much needed hugs!

It was a quick decision I had to make.

and when I say quick I mean:

IN 4 HOURS!

What I got done just doesn't seem clearly possiable!

I used the strength and courage that was literally sent my way and DID IT!

I look back now, and I can't believe I did it.

I really really can't.

I left everything!  Everything I own.

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I dunno what to even type.......

There are so many judgeful cruel people so it makes it hard to know what to say.

The truth of the matter is, the MOST IMPORTANT thing are NOT things!

Those things can be replaced.........It was who was in my car with me.

and who I had waiting for me when I arrived!

Keep reading and I will explain!

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I do know I have 4 loving, amazing, STRONG,  protective sisters that stepped in when I couldn't.

I have two of the most wonderful parents who heard the cries and acted.

Many family fasts, prayers and courage sent our way.

All I know is that GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS.

Especially when you are at his mercy and are on your knees begging literally BEGGING pleading, sobbing and broken and ready/willing to do his will!

I know, HE knew I couldn't do anymore.......and a pathway was given.

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As we drove these many many miles.......in rainstorms so bad I couldn't see the car infront of me.

and not knowing where I was going other then my GPS on my phone, My dad was my navigator.

He was MY ROCK each day, as we drove these long miles.

Checking my account and depositing as needed along the way!

Told me what was ahead for gas stations and hotels.

I would report where we were and then a email/text was then reported to my 4 sisters as they were all following along waiting anxiously for our arrivial.

I HAD NO FEAR!

NONE!

And I know for a fact I had many more watching over  us and my little car.

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Driving, day two:

 

Jax and Charlee were asleep in the back.

Abbie and I liked this time for we get to listen to music  :)

All the sudden a bird flew right toward us annnnnnnd THUD!!!!

It ran right into our windshild......I can't believe it didn't shatter.........

It was so LOUD and so hard!

We both turned to each other and laughed!!!!

Then as I thought about it......, that little bird probually was flying home.

maybe flying home to his or her kids........or  maybe it was a teenage bird and her mom was home waiting for her arrival.  maybe it was a grandpa or grandma bird,,,,,,,?
Or simply gathering twigs, mud or worms to bring back to her nest!

 

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Sounds lame.......maybe.

But It all seemed to make perfect sense.

Most of it anyways!!!!!

 

And...............SHE will fly!

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Yup, that exactly right!

I will!

right to where I am suppose to be.

Right to my daughter Autumn!

To my family!

And I will continue to fly for my children.

and for myself.

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As we got closer to home.......excited to see landmarks along the way.

MOUNTAINS!

oh how good it was to see Mountains!!!!!!

To feel the crisp air as we drove into colorado.

as we crossed over the UTAH border!

When we saw the OGDEN sign........and driving down the morgan canyon loving the red, gold and orange colors.

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Pulling into the driveway and seeing autumn in tears running out of my parents house, I couldn't open my door fast enough.

She cried. I cried.

and the hugging and crying continued for days after.
 

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So here I am.

Broken but new.

Hurt but strong.

Lost but also found.
And I still have questions that I dunno will be answered in this lifetime.

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 But here I will be,  and I have everything I need.
My 4 birds.

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My sister sent me this link

She says:
" You have suffered enough and warred with yourself, its time that you won"